Just the other week, I was listening to Alanis Morissette's album Jagged Little Pill. This was the first cd I ever bought, I hadn't listened to it in years but it started to feel appropriate again. Today, one of the lyrics jumped out at me:"life has a funny way of sneaking up on you when you think everything's okay and everything's going right, and life has a funny way of helping you out when you think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up in your face".
What particularly amazes me about life is the circles it goes in, and the coincidences that appear so often. As a rational person I know it is mostly about our tendancy to see patterns in life, and that there are a million times when I go on a train and not run into someone from childhood, or when the very thing you wanted from the supermarket didn't happen to be on offer there. But sometimes amazing things happen, the sort of things you thought only happened in films.
As a child, I used computers from an early age
, and was part of the 'computers for kids' debate -- now I work in that field, with people who know my grandad's company, with one person who worked with my dad many years ago, a boss who knows my phd supervisor, and a collegue who took the same masters as me on the same year as my boyfriend, and also went to school with a member of my boyfriend's band. Now, Lancaster isn't a huge place, so coincidences like this are not that surprising, particularly when people all work in the same field, but there always seem to be things like this going on, like when I found that archangelonline
was supervised by my boyfriend's dad, or when two people I know from very different circles happen to meet on a speed-dating event. Recently, I was there wishing I could see friends despite not being able to travel home, when I found that my best friend from school has a conference in Lancaster and wants to meet up for a coffee. And even more bizarrely, a few days ago a person crossed my mind who I haven't seen or heard from in 9 years... and within a week he contacts me out of the blue on Facebook.
Actually, that last one freaked me out quite a bit, it wasn't an entirely welcome contact. Basically we went out for about 2 days before he dumped me, and said that 'one day he would explain why'. That always bugged me, but I felt that he was the one person I would probably never see again. Life should have taught me never to make that assumption. But I'm not really upset, I'm glad he got in contact really -- I have no real desire to stay in contact, but not only has it provided closure on that little niggle in my head, but it has really put my life into perspective. Comparing myself to how I was back then, I can see I've moved on so much. Life has had its ups and downs in that time, but mostly what I've achieved is distance -- I've moved forwards and become someone I'm a lot happier with, someone who can now hold down a real relationship with a wonderful guy and be the person I want to be.
And of course, just as I'm musing these things, erfalaswen
posts her LJ meme...Post 10 things that you've done since moving to Lancaster that you're proud and pleased to have done. Stuff that you look back on and remember and smile about and feel good about.
The circle comes round again, time for another meme...( Cut due to lengthCollapse )
...But really, the thing that I'm happiest about is that I have 10 such things to list, and many more, including all the little things like nights spent with friends, meals cooked and jokes shared. I'm looking forward to seeing what life brings in the future.